focus and move forward

其余的心灵加速他们的堕落 一蹶不振的大众 缺少同情的流露 缺少共同行动的需要 缺少元气充沛的感觉 缺少攀登高峰的意念

四月雪

3 hours later:happy snowy easter holiday!

Lost

I spent half of day writing a letter. I should have done that long time ago. Always having some excuse not to do. But i know, in my heart, the reason that i didn't write. For fears, for confuse, for regrets...

lost in London street on Christmas time, in heart, in mind

Xmas Gift

My only Xmas gift is from the Santa Claus of TSB bank who gave me an overdrawn fine.

Exam

When others made mistake, I made mistake too.
When others didn't make mistake, I made mistakes still.

Xmas

圣诞假期的午间，蛋打菠菜煮泡面，里面的鸡汤是特意在圣诞节前去超市买的整鸡炖煮后留下的，其实炖整锅的鸡只想要那鸡汤。想来在这混沌的假期中，这是吃过的最像样的一顿饭，而且难能可贵的是在一个正常的时间（中午12:55）。

买鸡的那天逛了圈college旁的market，一眼就被那粉色的雏菊俘获，于是满心欢喜的捧了一束在满街的人群中穿梭。记得小时候粉色黄色是最爱。渐渐长大，衣橱中已经不再有那些粉色的花裙，取而代之的是黑色灰色深蓝色米色，最明亮的就是白色了，有时看到粉色总觉的有些过于粉饰矫情。然而，在这粉色的雏菊前，却全然没有原先的嫌恶之感。这粉恰到好处，既不过红也不过白，那样粉粉的白白的就粉到了心里。

Such a beauty!

昨夜失眠，醒来时已临近中午，所有计划几乎泡汤，不觉有些恼怒。匆忙去采购，走了平时不常走的小路，却发现了这一角落，直呼惊艳！较之那些让成群的游客留 恋的古老建筑，不曾有这样一处能让我如此惊喜。虽然有堆满了案头的problem sheets，job hunting带来的压力和挫折感，虽然未曾在此小憩，却依然能在一整下午都感受到暖暖的阳光，灿烂的招展的枝桠，和那飘零的落叶。



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做作业啃书，脑子变成一团糨糊。
上周天天熬夜赶作业，看来下周又是，那么找工作的时间在哪里呢？
去work fair发觉简直就是在自讨羞辱，虽然宣称要改名为“不要脸”，但是，第二天的fair打死也不愿再去。
上网看看国内的那些人的经历，更心灰意冷。路在何方？我不知。
oxford稀奇古怪的传统，比如matriculation，wearing gown to have dinner in the hall，还有四处分散的library，或许在有些人看来interesting，在我眼里都变成极度的annoying。所以虽然照了照片也懒得上传，也不愿写那些。看来上层建筑的确是建立在经济基础上的，没有Pounds,一切都是annoying。

补记：
写完上述牢骚后，决定把即将过期的两个鸡蛋炒掉，留待明天中午吃，谁知却在炒完后拿着筷子尝咸淡时全吃了。。。然后，想到了一个无聊的问题：为什么我吃不下两个煮鸡蛋，却吃得下两个炒鸡蛋？

Just post some photos of Oxford. Typical antique buildings:



When you see the tower in the left, you are in Oxford now.
p.s.: Who are so sweet and who is the lucky one?

First day of the course. Timetable is a little bit scary. Went to a party. Could anyone tell me how to chat with those guys from potential employers? Felt lost.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I just can't work on my study. I pick up my old friend, radio, and star at the sky all day long. But supposedly, as most of my friends did, I should post those antique buildings. At least streets are full of tourists taking photos everyday.

Another beginning

Dragging four big heavy bags, from the airline to a coach, and to a cab, I was here finally.In my temporal room without telephone and kitchen, I start to worry about my lunch now.(I've never realized that how I wish I could have an electric rice cooker!)